i'm suppose to be studying for exams, oh gosh. this week is just by slow and crazy. my mom is screaming at me, and i'm getting trouble in class. plus, i'm also tired everyday.
so i noticed i don't like a lot of people. i noticed that i talk about some people. two faced huh? it pretty much sucks because some people do that to me too and i don't even know it. what friends are here for you? who are your real friends? i noticed i can't and can trust people, and i tend to tell people my problems and they judge me based on my mistakes. woow. or, they tend to judge me by my looks, i'm sorry that you're just not as good looking as me, just kidding. i mean pretty/ beautiful. -_-, heard the word "good looking" is only for boys.


oh jeez. i heard my feminine side is almost here. me wearing skirts and what not :) i'm kinda happy. it's not like i feel like a girl, but i feel nice. and i like having nice comments, it feels good. so thank you :)
oh yeah, i'm planning on loosing weight too. i'm always just eating and then oovooing or studying. i'm so fat you know. it's funny how people lie to me saying i'm skinny, but good thing i have a sister who always tells me i'm soooo fat and honestly, i think i am. it's not funny. i need to get back in shape. that's why i'm running and stuff. i'm trying to loose some weight.



OH and that drama i'm watching "will it snow for christmas". gosh it's so nice. i really wish my life was like hers but with hongki instead of kangjin. -sigh- my life sucks and it's so boring. i wanna have a little fun in my life like go to richmond or something but my friend doesn't want to drive up there. it's ok. if you're reading this, don't feel bad.

oh yeah, and there's this girl who wants to be like this other girl by getting the same haircuts and stuff. pretty much a waste. she's not pretty anyway so she can back off. and she's pretty annoying. and you know what's weird, sometimes when i have a really good day, she comes along and texts me random stupid things about drama. gosh, middle schoolers these days. really though, if she even MESSES with me, i'm going to punch her in her face, and even though i'm still following my resolution, it's going to be tough choosing. but that girl needs some sense going through her mind than to mess with me. she can't even bear to say it to my face because she's such a pussy. i really wish she would though. really really really wish.


kbye.