wow, i can't believe strothers is giving us so much work. i really hate research projects. mine is just about bs. i don't even know. wtf. and we have to read so much. and we have to be done with the research and oral and reading by tuesday. this really does suck. i can't wait until summer and sophomore year. i really can not wait!! and like school is just a drag. it feels like i'm going there for nothing. and i only have 2 sol's left. i would have only one but i missed a week and i have to take the world history one. but it's so funny cause i don't know anything and people say it's hard. do they expect me to pass? it would be a miracle if i passed that one...


OMG! my mom is pissing me off. i told her i only had eng homework today and that i didn't have homework in any other class. so i asked her if i can go to church and she's all like nooooooooo. and i'm like wtf? i only have eng. but yeah, i'm pissed. i feel like breaking something lol. my life is just sucks right now.. and i'm hungry. but of course, i don't have anything to eat at my house.. greaaaaaaat. thanks for letting me starve mother.

idk what to do. good thing it ended though. everything seems wayyyy better. thank you God for leading me to the right path. thank you so mucccccccccch <3

yesterday, was seriously the best day of my life. or one of the best days ive had in a really long time :)

i became sisters again.
AND RUBY TUESDAYS!!!!!!!!!<3
omg. so much work.


shower, then proj


<333333333333333333333333

friends come and go.
but not sisters, or someone who treats you like a sister and cares for you.
i'm sorry for backstabbing even though you're not talking to me. really, i am.
i sinned. i went after someone who was still with you. sorry i just can't control my feelings. i know you still care about me, i know you do. i just want to solve this out in person, and not tomor bc tomor is the Lords day, not ours. tomor doesn't revolve around us, it revolves around him when we worship.
so answer my texts. and reply and accept.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VpCp-isOP-E

"don't let a boy come between our friendship"

no more braces maaaaan :)
but my teeth need to seriously grow! anyway, proj! then eating and doing some other stuff.

ive never felt so disappointed in myself. seriously.
why am i even on this earth? it would be so much better if i wasn't here.

honestly fml.
i need to pray, goodnight.

S T I C* R E T R E A T !

gosh i'm so sore D:
and i hate that feeling of being sore. gosh, whoever was in that hallway having "fun" or whatever, i'm going to whip your a** so making us do 3 miles. seriously? didn't she TELL us to stay outside? but your dumba** self had to run around in the building. you suck.

omg, i'm so scared about my grades. well only english, bc i know i didn't make any c's but english is just like......c'monn strothers,, bump me up. i need that b in your class. or at least a high c, no d. normally, english is my hardest class. -sigh-. what do i have to do to get a b? give you money? i try hard enough in your class. you just never know. AND i never sleep anymore. i'm tooo scared for this english grade >____< i can't have a bad grade;;;;; or i'll die.

God, please help me.

wow. when i get my freakin work all done, getting ready to go to uva, my mother tells me that we can't go. seriously. wtf is all this? i really want to go somewhere far far away, from my whole family and parents. i can't believe this. and tell me why my mom calls me saying, "you have a test tomor"???! too bad ii was going to bring all my books to study in the effin car and she just hangs up.

ohmygosh. i have so much studying.
-study 53 vocab words.
-bio quiz
-start on math IA
-start on PSA project
-start on ap worldhistory.


jeez. ib sucks.

i haven't been writing here in a really long time.
anywayyy, school has been a drag. seriously, i have so much work. my interum grade suckked too. oh jeez. i just can't wait for spring break or gosh. just thinking about it makes me really happy :). my life has been going good except for all that homework and tests. now those are dumb. but you know, let's not talk about all that good stuff lol.


gosh. people these days are pissing me off. honestly, wtf? if you really don't like someone, don't be immature and write it on their fs. it's retarded. you should just say it to their face, instead of being such a little pansy and writing it on the internet. if you really have something to say to me, don't write it down, i wanna hear it because this is going over the line. don't cause drama with me. i don't care if you like me or not, just give me a good enough reason. and don't start staring at me for no freakin reason because it's not like i can read your mind. don't ignorant. and also, don't start talking about me and start saying that you don't because everyone knows that you do. these things need to be gone. if you don't like me, tell it to me in my face, or don't say it at all. it's retarded. you're retarded. btw, and even if you say "i don't talk about you", that's basically the typical sayings that you, seriously, go get a reality check and just recycle yourself, no one needs this. especially, not me.
why don't you try hoppiiinggg offfffffff?!

SO MUCH HOMEWORK TO DO. :c

so basically, i don't feel like doing any homework or studying. so maybe i might start later lol. but i'm for sure to sleep at 10. gosh, i'm so tired lately. :l
i think something is wrong with me :o

DUDE WTF. i hate warwick high school officially. i got freakin excluded for having my phone out. seriously......?
are you really going to do this to me warwick. i think it's bc chiveious saw me sleeping during the assembly while they were going ever the rules of our school and decided that i was his first target.. i mean wtf though? these are some gay rules. and it's going to be on my permanent record. but i talked to the asst principle about it and my mother has to come to school and if i'm good for the rest of the school year, he will take it out of my record <3
thank you. seriously.
and i have a B in math. wtf? i should be having an A right now. i have an 88. gg mann...



anyway, listening to music. making a schedule for today, then homework, dinner, and bed. byeee!

btw, sorry i didn't write on here blogspot readers ;) AKA creepers!

i made the soccer team!

soccer tryouts sucked. :(
i'm seriously terrbile @ soccer. and it was raining, plus i didn't have any shorts. wtf.
and one time, i did this really good move, and the coach didn't even see me x___x;
she only saw me being terrible. i seriously don't think ill make the team. seriously.
oh and i'm sick. so bascailly, it was pouring, i was wearing shorts and a t, plus i'm sick. isn't this greaaaaaat?
i'm going to be soooooo sore tomorrow!
someone please pray for me.

this week has been a drag. -_-;
i'm so tired lately. and so much stress from ib and stuff.
either way, i need to make up my grades as soon as possible. :)
it's going to be good sooner or later. actually soon. gah. i wish i can just move lol. to like a better school or i wish i just went to college or a senior :c that would be nice!!!!


maybe it's just me.
i just wanna leave here and get on with my life. and i'm still only a freshman :(
gosh this sucks lol.

Valentines day was fun.
ian was my Valentine lol :)
anyway, o sore from snowboarding last night! and i'm so pissed that we have school tomorrow :c
wtf.



anyway, formspring me!
chill with me.

it's friday and i have a dinner tonight!
;). then tomor i'm going snowboarding. woohoooooo.
this weekend has been greaaaat! just that schedule that's coming up :c
whatever, i can suck it up!!

bbl <3

my internet is like breaking down. seriously. something is wrong with my computer..gosh.
and i ate more spring rolls today. puahahhaaa. i can eat 14 at the most o_o
kinda too much right? well my sister and cousin can eat more. i don't even know how. so weird.
I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.
like seriously, i hear muscle weighs more than fat?
i only have like a little bit of muscle. but i bet you that it's all fat. i only have arm/leg/ and a 2 pack.
LOL. fail.
i need to lose some love handles :c
i'm so fat, seriously.... wtf.

ohmy. i just ate some spring rolls and i'm so full :)
i can't for this day to go by.
friday: yg valentines dinner.
sat: skiing.
sunday: valentines day <3 :)
i don't have a valentine though. except for hongki but you know :)

so basically, i was planning on going to korea this summer, but i changed it.
i'm going to ghana! yayayayayy me.
anyway, i'm sick and tired of this drama.
please, just say it to me in person. i'm not going to write all these bad things about you on my fb or tell my friends. it's just so immature. if you have something to say, come up to me and say it, face to face, pleaaaaaaaaase.







btw, formspring me!
http://www.formspring.me/shindojin

gosh.. these little girls now a days talking about me. seriously if you guys really have to say something, don't end up writing it on fb or telling your friends. just say it to my face.
i promise, i won't hurt you. maybe if it's really terrible and stupid i might yell a little.
but if you end up touching me, i'm pretty sure i'll hit you in your face.
honestly, who wants to deal with drama now a days huh? yeah, wow.

go hop off.

i love you diana :)

OMG T_T.
i hate studying so much..wtf. >_____<
i'm like dying here. ive been at diana's since 12.
poor me getting torchered by diana..
and here, there's ada and anna, sooo cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee <3
i love them so much, my ttal is anna.

gosh and we have school tomorrow. it sucjs but it feels like it's going to feel like a monday...kinda. maybe it's just me.
OH and i'm going to learn how to play bass!! yayayayayayayayyay. so i'm going to sing for yg and play the bass at the same time.



GOSH. i have an hour an 30 more minutes left -_-;
AND I FREAKIN DID ENGLISH FOR 2 HOURS.
i hate this. fml.

today is a icy day hmm.
i just came home from hanging with melissa, paul, and david. it was lots of fun. i guess nothing is really up today. i hope i don't have school tomorrow >____<; seriously.


i'm bored. i ate sooooo much. can't believe it hahaha.

f you have something to say. i wanna hear it, not see it.

this snow needs to leavveeeee! oh gosh.
i'm like stuck at home now and monday i'm stuck at home. gosh this sucks so much.
and tomor is monday and i have absolutely nothing to do. and it's a free day wtf.
i'm stuck at home with nothing to do and it's a free day.




yo. i seriously don't like people. i mean wtf. maybe it's just me that is noticing their annoyingness but i'm going to say something to them. freakin that person always copies me. and calls me kkang pae. -_________-;
when i try being girly, they call me kkangpae? i'm trying soooo hard to be girly but noooo, i got called kkangpae like 4 times today at church..

REALLY SNOW??
why can't you freakin come on tuesday or something? gosh it's pissing me off.
and now my friend is all sad and stuff -_-;


and i'm so scared about my grades, and my exams. it feels like i failed -__-; gosh i'm so scared. i just hope i pass math, english, and spanish..

it's so freakin funny how i give my friend a shirt to wear hoping to give it back, and he ends up losing it. i mean wtf? i let a friend borrow a shirt and now, he can't even find it? now i know whether to trust him or not. -_- and it was a retreat shirt i worked hard for, for the freakin car wash and got sunburn everywhere..wow.



and i'm so full. i had hongkong :) my favorite. skyping with cramer, then sleep, and jet in the morning -___-; oh gossssh!

don't you just absolutely hate it when someone is like "i'll talk to you later" but you end up not talking to them later? wow.. i really hate this. maybe i should just get over "that person".


no matter how many times i try talking to that person, it never work bc he's always busy. wow i seem like a depressed girl or something. i need to get a life. i need to stop hitting on boys or whatever you call it. >___<

I FAIL AT MY LIFE.
my spanish and bio exam was hard as mess. gosh i'm so pissed. i mean wtf is this. i can't believe i spent my time studying thinking that i was going to pass but end up failing i mean wtf. it's so retarded. i hate all my teachers. i hate school, i hate my life. FML. yeah, that's it.

my life sucks. i think i'm starting to lose weight though. and tell me why a random boy called me a boy? wtf. he didn't even know me and he called me a boy. i hink i need to get even more girly hehehehehe. seriously though, i do.


but i ust ate some eggs and just drank water...lol about to eat some icecream :)
goodbye!
CAAAWWWWWW :D

i never expected you to be like this.

gosh today, i took my math exam. -_-. it was weird. actually, the math exam wasn't really that hard. who knows what i got on it. but after, i started listening to a korean song, and suddenly, i started crying and then some people in my class were staring at me. wtf?


& i went to the mall with cramer :) oh gosh. she is sooooo :) hahahaha. today was a good day. i skipped last period because i didn't have an exam. whatev.

OH and i have my bio and spanish exam tomorrow. i better start studying for that tonight. it's probably going to be hard for bio because my teacher never teaches us anything. it's retarded, all he does is give us notes to copy, and then worksheets. wtf is that maaaaan. and i have a 92. something in that class. i don't even know how i earned that grade man. it's retarded. i hate science so much. i just wanna burn down warwick high school and attend a different ib school like york :) hehe. that'll be fuuuuun. or, i'll just go to grafton. some yorkcounty school. OR, i could atted denbigh with my cousin yipeeeeee. ok, i think that's enough..



and i hate it when little kids don't listen to me. how am i suppose to be an unni when they don't even listen. aren't they suppose to listen to me so they could do the right thing? but noooo. they don't and they begin to fail .i'm not going to name names though because that's mean. but whatev. if they are going to waste their time on fb all day, they can. i'm not going to help her with anything unless she's off facebook and realy needs it.

btw, i think i still need to lose weight. i'm soooo fat. like seriously. oh and i stil can fit into my homecoming dress LOL from last year. it's coooool. didn't gain so muh weightbut gained a little.


whatever. skyping with melissa! bbl.

it's funny how you think a person is oh so nice, then you find out what they really are. gosh. i guess working out is the thing to do when you're mad. :c

oh yeah, i took my exams today. it sucks. i guess english was ok, but chorus was just -_-. <-- that's really how i looked when i took it. i was like wtf is this piece of poo. anyway, going to work out & run, then study..
i HATE exam week.





and, i told my friend about how my life is going to turn out with hongki :) hehehehehe. everyone will see.

oovoo maaaaaaaan. :)

i'm suppose to be studying for exams, oh gosh. this week is just by slow and crazy. my mom is screaming at me, and i'm getting trouble in class. plus, i'm also tired everyday.
so i noticed i don't like a lot of people. i noticed that i talk about some people. two faced huh? it pretty much sucks because some people do that to me too and i don't even know it. what friends are here for you? who are your real friends? i noticed i can't and can trust people, and i tend to tell people my problems and they judge me based on my mistakes. woow. or, they tend to judge me by my looks, i'm sorry that you're just not as good looking as me, just kidding. i mean pretty/ beautiful. -_-, heard the word "good looking" is only for boys.


oh jeez. i heard my feminine side is almost here. me wearing skirts and what not :) i'm kinda happy. it's not like i feel like a girl, but i feel nice. and i like having nice comments, it feels good. so thank you :)
oh yeah, i'm planning on loosing weight too. i'm always just eating and then oovooing or studying. i'm so fat you know. it's funny how people lie to me saying i'm skinny, but good thing i have a sister who always tells me i'm soooo fat and honestly, i think i am. it's not funny. i need to get back in shape. that's why i'm running and stuff. i'm trying to loose some weight.



OH and that drama i'm watching "will it snow for christmas". gosh it's so nice. i really wish my life was like hers but with hongki instead of kangjin. -sigh- my life sucks and it's so boring. i wanna have a little fun in my life like go to richmond or something but my friend doesn't want to drive up there. it's ok. if you're reading this, don't feel bad.

oh yeah, and there's this girl who wants to be like this other girl by getting the same haircuts and stuff. pretty much a waste. she's not pretty anyway so she can back off. and she's pretty annoying. and you know what's weird, sometimes when i have a really good day, she comes along and texts me random stupid things about drama. gosh, middle schoolers these days. really though, if she even MESSES with me, i'm going to punch her in her face, and even though i'm still following my resolution, it's going to be tough choosing. but that girl needs some sense going through her mind than to mess with me. she can't even bear to say it to my face because she's such a pussy. i really wish she would though. really really really wish.


kbye.

:) i meant to write on here last night, but i was oovooing with melissa and inkee.
anyway, i need to study more!! i have exams next week! it's going to succcccck.
>___< gosh. i better get like A's or B's. some mess like that. lol


MY TOILET BROKE WTF.
gosh. oh btw, i'm skyping with melissa right now too puahhahaha.
pretty sweet huh? then at like 6, i'm going to go to va beach with my family. :D
school is so uninteresting. all everyone talks about is guys and relationships and sex, and giving head and blah blah blah...it's so retarded. how can someone so young already give head and have sex. such a fallacy. and also, their parents don't even know, so what if they had children or something? what would their mom say?
BAAAAAM they would get hit in the face.
good thing i don't do that mess :) wooooo




+ i wanna hurry and get to college.
my life sucks.

so basically, i'm just writing here bc i'm bored.
i'm so sad for some reason. it's personal i guess. anyway, i'm skyping with heather and melissa. and paul is on the phone. something is wrong with me. i just randomly threw up and i feel kinda sick. plus tom is a off day ohmy. and i have church. sooo weird bc i have to color. lol.


anyway. i feel sick. and i was crying like an hour ago until melissa talked me out of something important.
thank you :D





btw, maybe when i get older, i can do certain stuff.
maybe when i'm 16.....maybe, in like korea.

2O1O

when seniors graduate..
and when i'm still in school.
jeez. i wanna be free.
and i want to move in to a dorm without mothers and sisters yelling at me.
but by the time i go to college, everyone in college is going to graduate.
great. i hate school. i hate the international baccalaureate program.
gah. ok.

there isn't really any big news.
there's no one to like. nothing to do.
i fail at my life.